Mental Health Collection: Amanda's Perspective
Earlier this year, Rebecca joined our team - to do our books and to help me with Grounded Goodness. I did not know then what I know now - that her joining our team would help me in more ways than just books and admin work.
You see, I had been struggling with motivation to work on Grounded Goodness. I was feeling less than inspired. With a separation from my husband in the works, and a divorce on the horizon, I was not in the best head space. It wasn't entirely awful, but there was so much change and so many learnings (which are ongoing, whew).
In a time where I needed to take care of myself, I felt I wasn't serving Grounded Goodness as well as I could have been. Oh, how I beat myself up for not putting the 'effort' in, on top of all of the other BIG stuff going on in my life. (Want to really beat yourself up? Get married, split up 5 years later, and consider yourself a failure. It's amazing. Highly recommend it. Haha just jokes.)
But I didn't really talk about the struggle, especially online. Close friends and family knew what was happening, but I felt like I needed to put a happy face on, for any Grounded Goodness social media posts/emails/writing.
I struggled, and then beat myself up for struggling.
But the funny thing? That was okay.
My rough patch over this last year reminded me of the times when I lived in Calgary, when I suffered from mild depression. I wasn't diagnosed, but I knew it. I felt lost and often alone (it did not help that I pushed people away or bailed on plans at the last minute). But I didn't really know how to get out of it.
And that was okay.
It was only when I gave myself permission to look for different jobs, different relationships and I made those changes...that I was able to thrive.
But when you're in it, it's hard to see the light of day. To know that there's hope. To know that there are tools, people, medication, alternative therapies, food, exercise, journaling, counselling, all sorts of things to help. Because if I'm being honest (and I always try to be honest), I didn't even want to help myself at some points.
But the funny thing? That was okay.
The reason I know that it's okay to struggle is this: when I allow myself to struggle, to just say 'fuck it' to the things I'm supposed to be doing, to be gentle with myself...when I allow myself to allow for that struggle, to accept it...that's when things open up. That's when it simply becomes okay. To just be.
The conversations that Rebecca and I have about mental health are eye-opening. There are so many times where I think: "more people need to know about this. I didn't know about this."
And our conversations make me realize that it's okay to be honest about this stuff. And for the first time in awhile...I've felt more honest and open in my Grounded Goodness work. And how beautiful is that?
(Rebecca and I having one of our conversations about mental health)
A few months ago, Rebecca suggested doing a Mental Health Collection, because of her struggles with mental illness over the years. I said 'let's do it.' (Rebecca's story is coming tomorrow!) I wasn't fully sure what it would look like, and I'm still not fully sure where it will take us...but I know that having conversations about mental health is important.
So here we are. My hope is that this collection will spark a conversation. My hope is that it will help you when you need it, or help a loved one when they need it. When you need a reminder that 'you're not alone' or that 'you can and you will.' Simple, but important.
While the Mental Health Collection was a huge team effort at our office, Rebecca came up with the sayings. Each of these sayings comes straight from her heart, and they are GOOD.
I know that some people struggle so much more than others, absolutely. Mental illness includes anxiety, depression, the whole spectrum. And my mental health story is different from Rebecca's...which you'll find out about tomorrow.
But as we were going through the decal sayings, I did notice that these sayings are applicable to everyone, for different reasons. We all need our mental health.
This post? It's just the start.
Tomorrow, we will share Rebecca's Perspective...so please watch Facebook or our website for it. We will also officially launch the Mental Health Collection tomorrow, which we are very excited about (despite the more serious nature of this blog post).
Thank you for joining us on this ride. I know you won't be sorry you did!
P.S. A big thank you to Adrienne Perrot for these Mental Health Collection photos! We appreciate you and your skills!
(sometimes, a girl just needs some help. (to put a decal on her forehead.))